wonderland.

too cool for you.

2011-02-27T18:09:00.004+08:00

she's so cool.

princessy.

2011-01-05T09:30:00.004+08:00

eversince forever, i've wanted to be a princess. i wanted a princess themed room, a princess themed birthday party, a prince for a boyfriend. of course, i never had any of the three. but it doesnt hurt to keep dreaming does it.

well, i gotta run. have to collect shida's cake, print her birthday card and well continue watching desperate housewives.

THIS IS MEEEEEEEEE. right now.

2010-12-02T04:25:00.001+08:00

city girl for i am not.

2010-12-01T00:47:00.004+08:00

i stay so strong and i ask myself, why?

i'm watching Friends for the 13548532th time, and its amazing how i never get sick and tired of it.

mummy and yaya and are finally home from colombo, and my bloody jealous because the waterfalls and beaches and mountains were beautifoooooool. chibye i should have followed.

india! hopefully india. ive had dreams since i was kid about going to india. the colours, the people, the culture, the crowd, the heat. i want to immerse myself in india ohmygod so amazing.

ive never been a city girl. if given a choice, i'd choose tranquility over mayhem any day.

vampy.

2010-11-22T19:44:00.001+08:00

Vampire.(by lysa whyte.)

An undead that rises from the grave during the night to drink the blood of the living in order to stay "alive". Generally the word "undead" refers to a creature that should be dead but is still active within the realm of the living.

Birth of a Legend

The vampire is truly a global creature, with myths related to the dead which rise to drink the blood of the living coming out of cultures all around the world. From Africa to Japan to Spain and the UK, the vampire has held humans enthralled for centuries. Nowhere, however, do we see more vampire folklore than in the stories of the Slavic people. Perhaps the reason for this is the historically high population of gypsies in that area. The migration of the gypsies has been traced back across the continent to northern India, where the religion had a cast of certain bloodthirsty deities (such as Kali) and creatures (such as a bhutu). It has been theorized that with this as a base of folklore, the gypsies picked up bits and pieces of other legends as they migrated toward the north-west and as a result, altered the folklore of the Slavic nations.

According to legend, the victims of a vampire either dies or becomes a vampire. Vampires could also be made in a variety of ways: a child born under certain omens, a cat or other animal jumping over a dead body, someone who committed suicide, and practising witchcraft are some activities thought to be the cause of vampirism. Even inanimate objects and animals were thought to be able to become vampires: pumpkins, watermelons and other fruit that was left out past a certain amount of time, latches that were left unlatched too long, dogs, horses, sheep and snakes are among the objects with vampiric potential in older superstitions of the Slavic gypsy community.

Vampires were thought to be able to take the form of a bat, or many other animals, as well as a mist. They were able to control creatures like rats and wolves, and the elements were at their command. Some kinds of vampires were thought to be endowed with the ability to fly. Most all vampires of legend slept either in coffins, or returned to the earth to sleep in their grave. Among other superstitions, vampires were supposed to need to return to the earth from their homeland each night, could not cross running water, could not see their reflection in a mirror, could not enter a place uninvited, and could not tolerate the symbol of the Christian crucifix.

In order to protect yourself from a vampire, the cross or crucifix was thought to be very powerful in the Christian countries. Little is known of how holy symbols were used as vampire protection before the Christian era, however, folk-cures were often employed. Garlic was the most popular vampire repellent, as well as hawthorn and the mountain ash (rowan). Another defense was scattering seeds - vampires were supposed to become so involved in counting every single seed that they would either lose interest, or be caught counting even as the sun came up. Surprisingly, silver was not as traditional a protective metal as supposed in popular fiction - iron was the material of choice. Iron shavings were placed beneath a child's cradle, a necklace with an iron nail was worn, and other iron objects were placed strategically around the place needing protection.

hurt, like a bitch.

2010-11-12T00:13:00.002+08:00

never knew it could hurt so much, when all i did was try to be a good friend.

fuck. so hurt that i'm actually pissed off.

done and done.

2010-11-11T01:24:00.003+08:00

finally done with ISP. just snippets here and there. dont feel like uploading the whole damn campaign. heeee. presentation tmrw, and then that would mark the end of my first semester of my final year. awh man, i just made it sound so sad.

its precisely 1.30am on a thursday morning, and i cant sleep. argh! shoot me.

reason.

2010-11-09T20:45:00.002+08:00

clearly, this, isnt going to be an easy battle. ive tried fighting with it, for the past 2 years and it still isnt going anywhere. it hurts like a motherfucking bitch, but attainable means attainable.

sometimes all you can do is pray and hope for the best. and even if it doesnt, i truly believe that everything happens for a reason.

tired.

2010-11-04T00:10:00.002+08:00

this week's been a really bad week. been feeling shitty all week, crying non stop, everything's hectic and i'm just feeling dazed.

i dont know what else to do anymore.

the end.

2010-10-19T18:57:00.001+08:00

5 weeks of assesment non stop hits stress level siao going crazy nights spent wide awake, is over.

yes. O.V.E.R

hello ISP. i welcome you with open arms. sigh.

too much.

2010-10-19T18:56:00.001+08:00

too taxing, too tempting, too much turmoil, too much. just too much.

crazy.

2010-10-06T23:53:00.001+08:00

BEYOND STRESSED.

AAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHH.

i know.

2010-09-26T16:36:00.004+08:00

so youre gone and i know you had me promise i wouldnt cry, and i'm sorry. i know youre never coming back and i may never see you again, and well it hurts. it hurts beyond imagination. and i thought i could handle it, but i cant. i want to reach out and touch you and kiss you, but youre not there. i would have given anything to tell you 'i love you' one last time. but it wouldnt have changed anything.

What motivates you.

2010-08-09T00:08:00.004+08:00

last updated, June 13th 2010.

Hahahahahahahahaha!

thought this was interesting. to all those who have 10mins to spare, it really is worth watching and listening.

you make it real baby.

2010-06-13T02:32:00.002+08:00

there's so much craziness, surrounding me,

there's so much going on, it gets hard to breathe.

when all my faith has gone, you bring it back to me.

you make it real for me .

when I'm not sure of, my priorities,

when I've lost site of, where I'm meant to be,

like holy water, washing over me.

you make it real for me.

and I'm running to you baby,

you are the only one who saved me.

that's why I've been missing you lately,

cause you make it real for me.

when my head is strong, but my heart is weak,

i'm full of arrogance, and uncertainty,

but I can find the words, you teach my heart to speak,

you make it real for me.

-james morrison. (you make it real.)

hellos.

2010-06-11T01:14:00.002+08:00

totally forgot to update this space. been so busy, with work and meeting up with friends, trying to please everyone, that i've completely neglected this blog of mine. anyways, work has been good. its been taking up alot of my days, but i find myself looking forward to see aiman each day. hehe. its been so ages since i've had a crush, i think the last time i had a huge crush on someone was well bakar? hahaha.

i feel all 16 year old again. everytime he talks to me, i cant help not taking the chance to just stare at him. i think i can stare at him the whole day and not do anything else. hahahahaha!. HAIS.

okay, before this my blog turns into some secondary school teenage girl, experiencing her first few trials at falling in love, i think i'd better stop ranting about aiman.

i'm in a dilemma. i dont know if i should spend $380 on a kate spade bag, ive been saving for quite some time, or use that lot of money to buy a whole bunch of other stuffs.

ah. the daily tribulations of a twenty year old. heh.

tc to all.

ah.

2010-05-24T21:55:00.001+08:00

AAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!

bold and short.

2010-05-16T14:17:00.001+08:00

i love her hair. looooooooove her hair. the colour, the length, the texture. everything!

good food good people.

2010-05-16T01:52:00.002+08:00

well, today, firdaus and i had the best lunch eversince, well, mother's day.

hahahahaha.

our saturday started off pretty late, because for starters, he took 3 fucking hours to get ready.

"sorry poot, i got carried away watching cartoons". baaaaaaaaaaaaaaaah!

and then, got stuck in the rain, because i wanted bubble tea, and the queue was fucking long.

so by the time we actually sat down and ordered, it was already 4pm. and we were starving i tell you.

so, awesome indian food, the rain, two best friends, and a three teh tariks.

i love you fir, and i'm gonna miss you so fucking much when youre gone.

2010-05-15T04:15:00.006+08:00

if i love you(thickness means worlds inhabited by roamingly stern bright faeries if you love me) distance is mind carefully luminous with innumerable gnomes of complete dream.

if we love each (shyly) other, what clouds do or silently flowers

resembles beauty less than our breathing.

- e.e cummings.

why!

2010-05-15T03:41:00.003+08:00

3.41am. still bright awake. well, not exactly bright, but awake. watching new york i love you online, but thinking only about you at the back of my head. how did it end up like this. how. why. right now, all i want is to pick up the phone and scream my fucking head off at you. you're so fucking rude sometimes. and i'm so fucking stupid sometimes. but i miss you. i miss you very much. and i dont care, how it wrong it sounds. i'm being fucking honest. i miss you. i miss the crap out of you.

i like the sound of water against water. it makes me calm.

dead poetry.

2010-05-14T22:50:00.001+08:00

Take your clothes off.
Undress.
Take your eyes off.
Depressed.
Take your mouth away.
Shut up.
Take your dreams away.
Black hole.
Take your legs away.
Stop.
Fill in the bath.
Pills.
Put them in.
Soak up, smell.
Remember the feeling.
Retain the moments.
Hold on to the damnation.

Rip your heart apart.
Stab your brain.

speechfuckingless.

2010-05-14T20:50:00.000+08:00

father's 56th.

2010-05-14T19:10:00.002+08:00

dear father.

it was your 56th birthday yesterday. you weren't even at home, and you didnt even give us a chance. i know i probably never told you this, but i'd really wish i was given a chance to know you. i think we could have gotten along pretty well.

20years have passed, and i'm still waiting. for a chance to know you. you've hurt me all my life. totally forgotten all about my existence. i know some people think its stupid, but i want to know you. i've been waiting all my life. and i'll continue to wait.

till then, well? happy birthday.

one more year.

2010-05-02T02:56:00.002+08:00

by this time tmrw, i'd already be done with my second year at Nafa.

time surely flies, doesnt it.

smell.

2010-04-17T17:45:00.002+08:00

i like the smell of mornings. and milk. and rain. and body shop. and books. and fried eggs.

and you.

yes, i like the way you smell.

25th/26th.

karoke! we will make this happen. we must make it happen.

shu baby, and ahn's 27th.

2010-04-15T21:46:00.007+08:00

not really in the mood for wordy, text heavy, entries. so, i'll post some photos instead.

random photobooth shots with shu baby, and ahn's 27th.

next, i'll try and upload photos from shye's 20th and more photobooth shit.

tc to all.

one down, four to go.

2010-04-09T13:53:00.002+08:00

1.53pm. friday afternoon. submission is finally over. well technically, it ended yesterday. i feel free, like a load being taken off my heavy shoulders.

went to watch clash of the titans with danny boy. the graphics were brilliant, but i still preferred the original storyline. either ways, we had fun. picturing ourselves as different characters. hahahaha.

just finished cleaning my room. reshuffling things, trying to de-clutter at the same time. well, its not exactly making much of a difference, just that everything just looks a whole lot neater now. oh well, at least my table doesnt look like, i just murdered a forest(papers everywhere? killing trees?.)

next on my calendar, fir's 21st, ahn's 27th, and shye's 20th.

oh and of course, ISP. arggggggggggh, kill me.

tc to all.

KISS, teletubies.

2010-03-29T21:45:00.001+08:00

HAHAHAHAHAHAHA. got me smiling to myself for a good five mins.

of everything.

2010-03-29T21:42:00.002+08:00

of daises and sunflowers, of iced lemon tea and the cold rain, of meltdowns and emotional whirlwinds,

you keep me floating. you keep me alive.

character design.

2010-03-22T02:19:00.002+08:00

i don't care what you people are going to say. i spent hours drawing and colouring this, for animation class.

and i think she's adorable. haven't really found a name for her though.

lets just call her 'little girl' for now.

if.

2010-03-21T03:03:00.003+08:00

so its exactly, 3.03am right now. im lying on my bed, all wrapped up in two layers of sheets, with a gossip girls loading, on the next tab, with you on the phone, telling me silly stories about your golden days. the weather is cold. and wet. just how i'd wish every night would be like. we're both talking in hushed tones, like some typical teenager seeking attention. you tell me, that i giggle like a little kid, and that you like amusing me. i blush, relieved that you cant see it.

everything sounds so perfect, yet we both know, deep down, its wrong. very very wrong.

sigh.

macam mundane.

2010-03-17T11:53:00.002+08:00

blogging about how much work i have to do is becoming mundane.

a short hello.

2010-03-14T23:05:00.005+08:00

will update soon. promise. for now, i leave you some crazy ass pictures of grace, aisyah, sean and myself.

because, animation is a bore.

honestly speaking,

2010-02-21T22:35:00.002+08:00

this is gonna be a very honest post. i hope that you people will be respectful of my feelings and not be so kehpo nak mampus. actually, even if you wanna be kehpo and tell the whole wide world what you 'think' is happening to me, then fine. i dont give two hoots either ways.

basically, from the bottom my heart, ive finally decided to put my foot down and put this to an end. i know its going nowhere. youve said it so many times, and so have i. i keep forgetting why i put on so much hope on it, when all i should be doing is, focus on letting go.

i'm glad that im not alone. im glad that im not the only person in this world, who has a very different perspective of things. i feel like a wierdo sometimes, well, at least a large number of people i know call me weird. they think its funny, that its a joke. guess they'll never know how sometimes, it actually hurts. oh wells. i dont care. i'd like to believe that im immune to pain.

kay dah ah, i think i'll end here for now. wanna watch discovery channel.

peace.

2010-02-21T13:55:00.001+08:00

YEA. PEACE YA'LL. WORLD PEACE.

i hate valentines day.

2010-02-14T20:45:00.003+08:00

first of all, let me begin with a huge apology for not updating this space. i have been truly busy with school, and well, honestly, there really isnt anything to update on. unless of course you want me to blog about my daily ramblings about how school went, how Yakult screams my name everytime she sees me around campus, or how many times, i would run into Elfa at the printing shop and get fucking excited, or how many times Ahn would nag at me for almost every single thing i do. or how many times we fight about the which line to take home, "green line ah, nooooo green line crowded lah, red line so long, nooo, red line got seat". fuck. hahahahahaha. loser sia poot.

happy valentines day all you crazy in love people. valentines day is crap, in my perspective. honest to god, like why the fuck would you need one fucking day to 'express' your love?. why do you need one day to celebrate?. its just complete bull if you ask me. love should be expressed all year round. oh wells.

gonna watch 'my name is khan' later tonight, cant wait cant wait cant wait.

east meets west.

2010-01-27T19:23:00.002+08:00

i love this picture, i love the fact that the asian girl is carrying a H&M plasticbag, while the mat salleh girl is carrying an Uniqlo plastic bag.

you know, because uniqlo is japanese based, and h&m is from the u.k

ahhh, whatever. i just like this photo.

until forever.

2010-01-27T00:12:00.003+08:00

been so busy with school and assignments that, yes. i have honestly havent had the time to step into here. school's been okay, i think its week three of the new semester now, and everyone's all set in, into their regular routines, which as for me contains of just more and more ciggarette breaks and trips to nearby food stalls.

the fucking cereal prawns at simpang, are calling out to me, even in my dreams. if only ian could make cereal prawns like how they make them at simpang.

i promise i will meet you this friday and have drinks with you. i love you so much, and i am so sorry for neglecting you.

i feel like ultra shit right now, i could really use some of my brothers blueberry cheesecake or starbucks's blueberry muffin.

i think i just need to sleep.

i love you so much.

2010-01-18T22:52:00.003+08:00

i cannot deny that it hurts, so so fucking much. i dont know how long more i can be strong, and fight it, but i will, nevertheless, keep pushing on.

macam bodoh.

2010-01-13T22:55:00.002+08:00

Ahn macam bodoh today. maybe he pms-ing or pregnant, i dont know but he seriously macam bodoh today. perangai sial, macam pantat ayam. from his sudden need to swipe his visa, to his mother fucking jokes about me, being paranoid, to his black face all day long.

i hate you ahn. i hate you forever. hahaha, kay bye. 9am class tmrw.

twenty.

2010-01-13T17:43:00.002+08:00

twenty, and trying to love every inch of it.

good morning.

2010-01-10T06:22:00.002+08:00

i like waking up in the morning. knowing that everyone else is probably asleep. makes me feel like im in this world all alone. its a nice feeling.

nuu year.

2010-01-10T05:14:00.002+08:00

the crazy things we do, everytime we sleep over.
LOVE THEM, WITH EVERY INCH OF MY HEART.

eh bodoh.

2010-01-06T20:49:00.002+08:00

all this time you knew. you knew i was getting over you, but you being you, with your ego bigger than your ass, with your male pride shit, just never wanted to tell me. tell me, that you knew that is. fucker chibye, and to think, i actually felt sorry. i really did you know. because i was in love with you. honestly, i dont know whether it was love, but i just had this constant need to not hurt you, to make sure you were happy. baaaah. how naive.

you know what, i feel like a loser now. i feel like a 14 year old girl, who got a poor naive little heart broken. i feel weak. i feel so kental!.

haiya, hungry ah.

jessica szhor.

2010-01-06T03:17:00.002+08:00

SHE IS GORGEOUS. LOVE HER. HER HAIR, HER FACE, HER CLOTHES, HER SKIN COLOUR. WANT EM ALL. LOL.

just a short note.

2010-01-06T03:10:00.002+08:00

i realised, my last entry here, was dated december 31st, 2009. technically, that was last year. hahahaha. anyways, i guess ive just been busy, enjoying the last few weeks being a bum, being nineteen, being lazy, and free. (:

on that note, happy 2010 everyone. i know im a bit late, but nonetheless, its still only the 6th.

i dont do resolutions. never once believed in them, and i probably never will.

kay bye, back to Law and Order SVU. detective elliot stabler, omg so sexy.

writing them all down.

2009-12-31T06:46:00.004+08:00

screw zouk. screw kan-chiong people, who start entering at eight fucking pm. we wasted so much time just travelling. ugh.

post christmas sales, year end sales, every fucking where. feels like massive blows in my head, every single time i pass by town. i want everything. everrrryyyyyything. booooo. ):

finally caught sherlock holmes. robert downing jr is shit ass sexy!.

school's reopening in ten days. not really looking forward to it. i could get used to this lifestyle you know. at least for a while more. oh wells.

i have a tangs voucher, a metro voucher, a body shop voucher, and an isetan voucher. allll credits to christmas. now, would be the best time to use it i guess.

damn i badly wanna go shopping. think im gonna drag whoever, and just gooooooo.

im gonna look at it optimistically.

i'm embracing the new year by contributing to the economy. its my way of saying thankyou to the country. (:

tc to all.

pening ah.

2009-12-27T03:11:00.002+08:00

ive been having a terrible terrible headache since, five/six hours ago. its not going away, neitheir is it showing any signs of soothing.

my head's been pounding and pounding and it feels like im riding a perpetual rollercoaster.

arghh.

ive already swallowed three panadols, and even tried to fall asleep. somehow, nothing seems to be working.

i cant even read without feeling dizzy.

love the rain today, looking at all my presents, thinking, im too old for them. thinking about turning twenty. thinking how, i think its time i start looking for a job, and behave more twenty-ish. how do people in their twenties behave anyways?. ive had so much fun this holidays. waking up at 4 in the afternoon, staying up till 6 in the morning playing xbox, and watching old hindi movies. basically living the life of a bummer. it rocks i tell you. big time! hehe.

okay, im off for my run now.

my name is khan.

2009-12-26T02:58:00.002+08:00

I AM SO LOOKING FOWARD TO THIS MOVIE, YOU ALL HAVE NO FUCKING IDEA, I SWEAR.

SHAHRUKHKHAN AND KAJOL. TOGETHER. AGAIN, AFTER SO LONG.

FEBRUARY COME QUICK.

moving on now.

2009-12-22T02:39:00.002+08:00

suker hati kau lah jantan.

aku dah tak kuasa nak layan kau.

moving on now.

(sorry to all my non malay speaking readers,i just had to post this in malay.)

whaazap.

2009-12-17T23:40:00.002+08:00

i suddenly miss writting long entries, and drying everyone up. its just that, lately, ive been coming across so many pretty photos, that i just had to post them up here.

anyways, wardah just had to remind me, that school's in three weeks!. ive been so busy enjoying my holidays, that i really dont want school to end. urgh.

i think its because, im having so much fun enjoying being alone, catching up with people i havent seen in months. just spending my holidays well, being in singapore this time. hahaha.

was watching, the karen capenter documentary, on youtube. sooo sad. made me cry like fuck. cant believe she went through so much pain. i can so relate to her, and how she wants to be alone in life. sometimes, its just better that way.

christmas is in 7 days. sevennnnnnn days, omg! which means, 2010 is 7+7 days, which means im turning twenty in 7+7+10 days. oh fuck, im turning 20 in 24 days!

FUCK.

i dont wanna turn 20. i dont wanna go back to school. i dont want celebrations at home, nothing. i dont want anything. i just wanna be 19 forever. please. ):

kay bye, gonna watch mrs doubtfire now.

tattoo boy crazy.

2009-12-17T17:27:00.001+08:00

OH MY GOD SO SEXY.

meow.

2009-12-15T03:00:00.001+08:00

MEOOOOW.

watergun boys.

2009-12-12T18:39:00.000+08:00

OOOOOOOOOO. cuteness.

(:

2009-12-12T04:38:00.004+08:00

i had a beautiful day today. i should learnt to love life and be a little bit more contented. (:

beautiful people in my life.

2009-12-09T05:31:00.003+08:00

harrow all, been busy enjoying my holidays. hence, the not updated blog.

met up with my gossip club girls on monday. been long since i saw them, felt so good just talking and laughing. and well, abit of crying for some. hahahaha. haiz.

was at science centre's mac till three am plus plus after that. i love talking to you. youre so easy, and funny and you actually listen. things may be crazy between us, but i'll never give up this friendship, relantionship, whatever the heck it is. youve become part of life, and in this case, the reason for alot of my mushy blog entries. hahahaha!

Adam Sandler is so adorable. i love his voice, and his cute little smile. The Wedding Singer, still makes me cry. every single fucking time.

its 5.44am. and i seriously needa get some sleep.

new york i love you.

2009-12-03T04:34:00.004+08:00

omg, i soooooo wanna watch this. ili! elfa! dont busted okay.

cant wait cant wait.

i really shouldnt be awake right now.

gotta run some errands for mummy and grandaunty jum tmrw, and then to hospital to vist poor ol' grandaunty. and then to starbucks to meet vi.

im having a terrible craving for yong tau foo at marina sq. ):

the dark hour.

2009-12-02T02:15:00.004+08:00

And now,

when merry winds do blow,

And rain makes trees look fresh,

An overpowering staleness holds
This mortal flesh.

-The Dark Hour.

a pretty girl in a pretty photo.

2009-12-01T05:56:00.001+08:00

so pretty, the leggings. the hair, the hat. love love love it.

peaceful.

2009-11-29T15:02:00.008+08:00

saturday was good. very very good. spent the entire day with shida.

met in the morning at moooooostafa for breakfast, and shopped for toiletries.

cheese garlic naan, butter chicken and jelfrezis. lovelovelove.

and then off to GH, to vist grandaunty jum, who just got out of a hip surgery was it?.

the whole, only allowing 4 visitors shit, is just plain stupid.

after the boring talk-cock-at-the-hospital session, we decided we needed more more more more excitement. i mean, its a fucking a saturday night sia.

so, we went for drinks at raffles quay. had the best time, talking, drinking, laughing about our kental primary school days and crazy relatives.

twas good.

got home at 3 fucking am, was too sleepy to even check on my cafe world.

hehe.

yup, that bascially sums up my saturday.

okay, gonna go get ready now. off to marina sq.

whirlwinds and crazy thoughts.

2009-11-27T03:47:00.005+08:00

was sleeping soundly like a baby, in lala land with johnny deep and colin farrell both chasing after me, when all of sudden,(why is this starting to sound like a boring composition introduction). anyways, violet called, was having lovey dovey problems. couldnt go back to sleep, thus, leading me to now write here.

things have been so crazy lately, ive been such an emotional wreck these past few weeks, i think everyone at home is getting a tad bit frustrated with me. hehe.

but im nineteen, i think im at a phase in life, wherby my emotions are just all over the place and overwhelming at times.

men and love, usually being the primary cause for all the unneccesary whirlwind.

well, i dont really bother what the reason is, i like the whirlwind. it makes my life seem alot more exciting. well, sometimes. i like being able to let go, being able to cry whenever i want to cry, being able to laugh whenever someone makes me laugh, even with tears, still in my eyes.

i dont know if that makes sense to you, but i dont give a shit if it doesnt.

theres this pretty pretty top at zara i wanna get, but its 129. mummy seems to think its uneccessary and ridiculous. hahaha. but its so pretttttttty, and its grey. charcoal grey. ): ah fuck, im getting it.

oh me oh my, its 4.49am and ive rambled too much.

tc to all.

eee chili, busy busy.

2009-11-25T02:14:00.002+08:00

Fai says, this is how i look whenever i accidently get chilli sauce on my french fry.

Hahahahahahahahaha!. you have no idea, how hard i was laughing and coughing and laughing and then coughing even more.

photo courtesy of ;dirtylittlestylewhore

ive got lots of things to do tmrw. breakfast plans, and then meeting Vi and Ahn at marina and then to the airport to send off Dira.

and then, meet mummy at moostafa to stalk up on junk food and hindi movies.

argh, busy busy busy.

still, im not sleepy.

afraid to trim sensitive hair.

2009-11-24T05:48:00.002+08:00

Billboards built around actual electric wires and poles to amusingly yet convincingly dramatize the need for the panasonic nose hair trimmer’s safety cutting system.

Advertising Agency: Saatchi & Saatchi, Indonesia

Creative Director: Juhi Kalia

Art Director: Audy Sutama

Copywriter: Pancaputera

Illustrator: DeadWolf Studio, Rudy Harianto

Additional credits: Dini Makmun, Shanty persada, Daniel B, Annisa M, M,Iskak, Tri S, Aryanto S

Published: August 2009

loves.

2009-11-24T05:30:00.005+08:00

viadirtylittlestylewhore.

love love love love loooooove.

fishball fatness.

2009-11-22T04:56:00.001+08:00

IVE GOT FISHBALL CHEEKS. FUCKFUCKFUCK.

dolls.

2009-11-21T20:55:00.000+08:00

i conclude.

2009-11-21T01:00:00.005+08:00

today, i have finally come to a conclusion, that as of this moment. i am not gonna mop around about my love life and the many men in my life.

e.n.o.u.g.h.

no more, sappy love songs and writing in my diary about how much i miss him and then start crying like some loser.

no fucking more.

as corny and cliche and not-me, as this sounds, im gonna leave everything up to fate. whatever happens, will eventually happen. i am in no control to stop or allow these things from happening.

nevertheless, im still taking full control of myself. its just that, im just gonna take control of the things which i can, actually control. does that make sense?.

christmas shopping this weekend. awesome.

a cute picture.

2009-11-19T23:05:00.003+08:00

oh how sweet. love kristen's leggings too.

xmas and you.

2009-11-19T19:43:00.007+08:00

met hezal for lunch today, finally after eons. subway and then, followed him to get dvd's and run some errands. twas so sweet, we were holding hands and giggling and pulling each others hair. like fucking eight year olds.

i love how fai's so mushy and emotional when he misses me. hahahaha.

im craving for my brothers roast chicken and potatoes.

christmas is coming. havent done any christmas shopping. arrrgh.

speaking of which, i think the christmas decarations all around marina square, suntec and raffles city are all so pretty.

dear you,

i miss the way you would kiss my neck when im reading, and youre bored.

i miss how you would whisper to me just for the sake of whispering.

i miss the way you would look me straight in the eyes everytime we talk.

i miss how warm you always feel.

i miss you. ):

bad timing.

2009-11-18T21:20:00.003+08:00

"Two people can be perfect for each other but if the timing’s wrong it’s never going to work out. Bad timing is the reason that most normal people end up single. Weirdos and creeps are single cause they are weird and creepy but people like us are single because of bad timing."

woman with nice teteks.

2009-11-18T01:51:00.000+08:00

HOTT HOTT HOTT HOTT HOTT.

happiness.

2009-11-18T01:32:00.005+08:00

watching gossip girls, season three. omg! im so into it. dan and vanessa might be getting together, and im going crazy. two best friends, finally falling in love. really, couldnt get anymore sweeter.

chuck bass acting all older brother like, saving jenny from getting drugged at a club. awwwwwh, x1million.

okay dah enough. hehe.

im loving everything about my holidays right now. instead of getting a job,

ive been sleeping over at shida's place.

ive been, watching movies back to back(paranormal activity & 2012) both at marina square. hahahaha!

ive been taking free trips from pasir ris to causeway point, just for breakfast.

ive been sleeping at 6am, watching gossip girl and reading all my old high fashion magazines from europe.

today, i spent the entire day with my love. watching movies and we had an awesome sushi dinner. im on cloud nine.

from the peculiar way that i am blogging right now, i think everyone can tell that i'm happy. i dont know why im happy but i guess im happy?.

wtf?

gonna go make myself a huge cup of coffee, while waiting for 'love happens' to finish loading.

good nights. stay happy everyone.

hmm, cute.

2009-11-13T23:05:00.001+08:00

my drug.

2009-11-13T15:06:00.001+08:00

youre like ecstasy. youre very bad for me, yet i just cant seem to get enough of you.

happy holly-days.

2009-11-12T22:14:00.002+08:00

hello. i am very happy. ISP is officially o.v.e.r. like fucking finally. so fucking happy. can fucking sleep and wake up at whatever time i feel like fucking waking up.

this is something random, but i wanna name my baby girl(if i have one), Athena.

yea, like the greek goddess Athena. sounds so regal and strong and powerful and nice.

hehe.

i want to be cleopatra and have beautiful eyes. i dont wanna be pretty or sweet or cute.

i just want beautiful eyes. like cleopatra.

my macbook is so dirrrrrrty. its not white anymore. fuck.

my love was so sweet today. so sweet, i almost got diagnosed with diabetes.

im in love with heidi klum's voice. so adorable and girly and feminine.

Shirin something something, from project runway is sooooooo pretty. im so jealous of girls with pretty eyes. heh.

anyways, im terribly bored and empty and sleepy and not in the mood to blog right now.

happy holidays 2B. (:

tc to all.

megan fox, shoot.

2009-11-08T14:45:00.003+08:00

the accessories, the to die for earrings, the skin colour, the make up. the whole bronzed effect.

omg. im so jealous.

just because,

2009-11-07T20:22:00.000+08:00

Just because she makes fun of herself doesn’t mean shes completely comfortable with herself. Just because she walks alone to class doesn’t mean she doesnt have any friends. Just because she laughs all the time doesn’t mean shes annoying. Just because people talk about her, doesn’t mean she likes it. Just because she gets a lot of attention, doesn’t mean she is an attention freak. Just because she gets things from her parents doesnt mean she is a spoilt brat. Just because she is a daydreamer, doesn’t mean she never pays attention. Just because she jokes all the time, doesn’t mean she can’t be taken seriously. Just because she smiles all the time, doesnt mean she is always happy. Just because she is quiet sometimes, doesnt mean she is sad. Just because she tries her hardest all the time, doesn’t mean its gonna pay off. Just because she is called names for saying something dumb or being annoying, doesn’t mean she can keep taking it.

the free willy song.

2009-11-07T15:34:00.002+08:00

i am so in love with this song right now, my brother's getting annoyed. heh.

kranji. ahn. talkcock.

2009-11-06T20:51:00.002+08:00

its been long, since ive updated an entry about how my day went. was reading through my last few posts, and they all seem rather, vague.

i guess my lifes been pretty much a routinely affair, so much so, i dont really see a point in blogging about it.

anyway, my day today went pretty okay.(like most of my days)

met ahn at woodlands, as usual, i was late. heh. we were in the train, when we both decided, that theres no point in going to school anymore. so we got down at kranji and had lunch instead. bubble tea shortly after and talked the afternoon away.

its amazing how the two of us, can talk like nobodys business. i mean, how if one day, we just run out topics. hahahahaha.

i dont think they'll ever be sucha day.

so thats it?. thats the end of my day. boring and mundane to you, simple and sweet to me.

take care to all.

what makes you different, lyrics.

2009-11-03T20:11:00.002+08:00

You don't run with the crowd

You go your own way

You don't play after dark

You light up my day

Got your own kind of style

That sets you apart

Baby, that's why you captured my heart

I know sometimes you feel like you don't fit in

And this world doesn't know what you have within

When I look at you, I see something rare

A rose that can grow anywhere (grow anywhere)

And there's no one I know that can compare

What makes you different, (alright) makes you beautiful (alright)

What's there inside you, (alright) shines through to me

In your eyes I see, all the love I'll ever need

You're all I need, oh girl

What makes you different, makes you beautiful to me

a letter.

2009-11-01T16:41:00.004+08:00

dear mango avaitors,

please show yourself. please. i miss you.

i cant find another like you.

i know ive neglected you alot, during the last trip to london. oh heck, i didnt even bring you along to see wales with me. im terribly sorry.

you see, after the short KL trip, i'd found many cheap wayfarers, that came in all sorts of colours.

its not as if i didnt want you to be the primary shade to my beautiful eyes, i just wanted to give you a break. especially from the harsh singapore sun.

please show yourself dear avaitors. ever since, ive lost you, ive been searching high and low for another just like you, at all the mango outlets in singapore. sadly, there isnt another like you. you were my one and only, and i miss you very much.

please show yourself. i truly believe, that i couldnt have possibly be stupid enough to leave you on the plane or in the united kingdom.

your sincere and remorseful owner,

poot.

hahahalloween.

2009-11-01T14:49:00.004+08:00

halloween, tak menjadi.

everyone at raffles city was all dressed up, so we decided to join in the fun.

kallang leisure park was nice. still pretty empty, and relatively quiet.

fuck isp. fuck exams. fuck fuck fuck.

D&G advertisement.

2009-10-26T20:10:00.003+08:00

loooooove this.

a mark.

2009-10-26T01:14:00.007+08:00

"ive finally come to realisation, deep deep down,

that we have both reached a point,

whereby we simply cant live without each other.

you cant deny it. and im not going to either."

work work work. ideas ideas ideas.

2009-10-24T23:44:00.002+08:00

dear eyebags, please go away. please go far far away and never return. arggggggggggh.

ISP's been hell. im so fcuking worried i cant finish everything on time.

ah fuck, shoot me somebody.

been drawing and wasting paper my whole friday and saturday. well technically, just abit of friday only.

i think ive crushed as many papers as one whole tree.

and then theres copy.

write write write write write.

somehow though, i always end up writing poems instead of thinking of halloween copies.

hahahaha!.

zul is back. im so glad youre back. so so so glad. ive missed you zul. veh much.

powerhouse soon, with the rest. prolly after my assessment okay?

chocolate milk, and cheezels. its 5.36am in the morning.

rendered two ideas, dont really like them. looks too vague.

the fear idea, seems alot more promising, i just dont know how to fcuking draw.

gooood morning all.

mushy.

2009-10-19T23:52:00.004+08:00

the thing with you and i, is that people dont get us. and thats the best thing. it truly truly is. because, its as if we're living in our own world, laughing at our own jokes, talking about our lives. i love for you. alot. sometimes, even more than you think you know.

a vampire this halloveen.

2009-10-16T18:14:00.003+08:00

I VANNA VANNA BE A VAMPIRE, THIS HALLOVEEN.

rant rant rant.

2009-10-15T21:55:00.005+08:00

assessment is bloody over.

i slept for 18hours last night.

i am as happy as hell.

apa artinya cinta tmrw, suria. yessa.

my ipod has only 600 plus plus songs. not fucking enough.

i want to be a red indian.

i want salmon sashimis, watermelon juice and eggtarts.

watching travel and living, globe trekker.

omg, the balinese songkets are so prettttttty.

shida, lets go bali.

ian's baking. yet again. probably for deepavali? haha.

omg, im obsessed with pretty necklaces. i need more more more.

took a cab from Lasalle to Nafa campus one. meter didnt move. at all. hahahahahahaha. thanyou dira.

hello ISP.

hello no make up to school days.

hello sleepless nights.

hello so stressed up till i start crying days.

hello hell.

chillllllled.

2009-10-11T01:09:00.003+08:00

my saturday was a pretty nice saturday.

woke up at with nuemerous missed calls from ahn. only to find out, hes in foul mood. sigh. D:

met the boys at 2pm at woodlands, headed to town. then to airport for lunch first, and then to take some photos for the whole jetstar shit.

dinner at lau pa sat was ohmygod so good. thankyou darling. for the treat.

dira's place tmrw for lunch. cant wait.

arggh. its that time of the year again, ISP.

fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck.

oh fcuk.

2009-10-08T23:24:00.003+08:00

i am so fcuking screwed. i am falling for you, with each passing day.

fuck fuck fuck.

i know, that between us. nothing can ever happen. you know it too.

why cant you just fucking admit to it and let me go.

im not barbie, boy. i have a heart. and its breaking apart, everytime i stare at those beautiful deep eyes of yours.

awesome weekend.

2009-10-08T21:16:00.007+08:00

terribly sorry, for the lack of updates. ive been preoccupied wit heaps and heaps of neverending assignments. but, lets not talk about that, because i have had the most exciting weekend everrrrr. period.

chalet with 2B was awesome pawsome forsome. wildwildwet was nothing but fun all afternoon. and to top everything off, jalan raya with my year one darlings was ze best. laughing/giggling, eating at all 10 over houses?, singing emo, jiwang malay songs in the car. from nana & achik, to beyonce, to alllllll the raya songs. ili's car literally shook.

but we all had fun. even if it was, reaching home at 4am in the morning.

photos below.

longest jalan raya ever.

random happenings, at the chalet.

there you go. all done and updates.

sorry, no pictures from wildwild wet. i guess i was too busy running away from bakar.

going down to meet my love in a bit. whos, fucking taking his own sweet time.

good nights one and all.

nice.

2009-10-03T13:18:00.002+08:00

i need to fcuking go threading.

chalet was pretty awesome.

it felt more like i went clubbing actually.

with the bloody loud music, and booze.

wildwildwet was okay, pretty much awesome shit ass fun too.

took the U-shaped thingye with syirr,

OMG, fcuking scary.

tried to hide from bakar, probably failed.

on the whole, i had sooooooooooooooooo much fun this weekend.

eh wait, its only saturday.

pretty hair.

2009-09-22T22:40:00.002+08:00

via;dirtylittlestylewhore.

raya. 2009.

2009-09-19T17:51:00.003+08:00

SELAMAT HARI RAYA/HAPPY RAYA DAY

dear one and all.

whether or not you celebrate raya, i dont give two flying fucks.

just say 'thankyou poot' when you see me.

frustration.

2009-09-19T16:56:00.002+08:00

facebook's being a bitch, i swear its so annoying.

arrghh.

finally got my ear stud. cheapo ones, cause im damn broke.

and also because, zuan just told me his diamond was real.

hahahahaha. how i know sia zuan. you never tell me.

malay shows/dramas are so bloody boring. really, they should be banned.

its like fcuking boring with typical bloody storylines.

i know that its hari raya tmrw, but i really dont feel like going out/visting. blah blah blah. its just too overwhelming and stupid to me. can i stay at home and sleeeep instead.

dear, zul. i miss you oh so much. come home soon.

you, no more.

2009-09-19T12:26:00.005+08:00

GO SUCK BALLS.

I DONT NEED/WANT A MAN LIKE YOU.

WE'RE GOOD FRIENDS.

NOTHING MORE. NOTHING LESS.

simple.

2009-09-17T23:29:00.004+08:00

i am extremely extremely extremeeeeeeely frustrated.

to a point, where i just need to slap someone read hard.

todays been a relatively ok day. veh tired, walking all over.

school to peace center to plaza sing to funan mall to raffles city to ion orchard to far east plaza and back to orchard stn before heading home. arggh.

but its all good. :D

i think i needa break. like some time off, to just sleep.

and sleep.

im actually craving for kfc right now. like now now!. 11.33pm now.

ahhhhhhh.

having breakouts.

fcuking hell. two days to raya and im having breakouts.

fuck. not really looking forward to raya anyhoos.

typography at 9am tmrw. good night my virtual world.

need to change my blogskin. i dont really know how to do it, using macbook. i get copy codes. how ah. help me.

a break.

2009-09-13T14:29:00.003+08:00

OK. BACK TO ASSIGNMENTS/RAYA SONGS/KOREAN INSOMNIA.